Most of the time,I'm feeling guilty,not for anyone,but myself.

People make choices,so do I.But never realized that making choices could be so hard before.20 years ago,I always did what my parents asked,nearly no doubt at all.cuz if it's wrong,I don't need to take the responsiblity.Getting protection is always/only children's privilege.Now I have to be on my own,since I'm a adult.

The difficult is not the process of making choices.It's all about providing myself that what I've choised is right.I keep believing that time will tell us everyting at the last mins,but the problem is I can't wait for the result coming out and then to make the next move.I want to make a long plan which ensure that my road is smooth and save.yeah,I know it's stupid though.whenever people agreeing with me,I will start feeling that I could be wrong.Somehow I do find it's not easy to face the failture,especially when I don't know how much it's gotta take from me,and how much I gonna offer to make it right again with what I have.That's pretty much the guilty.

when I get what i want,I will be happy,for real and for ever and anything i say it will be.cuz i will make it happen,It's right,isn't it?