Something's just about to come,i can feel it.but never thought it's so close like today!God,haven't got ready enough for it.Totally out of expectation.The decision I gonna make is so damn huge!! awww..why now?!!

Well,maybe it's time to change,but so hard to make.I did admit it was something i really wanted half year ago,but when im used to where im now and loving it,I just cannot see any reasons to dump it easily like nothing happened before,and then go after something which's not that intresting now.

I know,to others,I'm really damn lucky!Cuz they don't even have that chance.Well,I'm not saying how much better im than others tho,and at the same time,I cannot prove myself capable to it, I...I'm just not that confident this time.

And Im bit care about what others would see me if I make it.I'm very afraid of picturing it.It might go worser than I think....I don't really wanna put myself in that kind of situation,it's aweful! And I don't wanna make myself so different from them...

Awwwwwwwwwwww,what am I gonna do???......Thx god,I didn't have to make a decision today,or I'm gotta fucked-up!